I am so sorry for your pain

hang in there

you are strong

hugs

Fly,

((((heart hugs)))) You are my longest friend I've had here on MDD. We've been through some things. Russell, Mike, Will, your luis and that mystery guy. the day i left TSU you had andrew i remember when you found out you were expecting...time flies doesn't it.

We are the same age and took different paths but we are both good women. You are one of the best moms I know to their kids. It's natural to want independence...I want more myself(my licence). You are a good mother. Do something with the kids today...take them to the park,take them on a walk,play outside, mcdonald's play place something with just the three of you. make a goal to have some mommy and kids time like 3 times a week. your lil sister and arianna are getting into it because there kids. they'll most likely outgrow that but this is also an adjustment for both of them as well(does arianna start kindergarden this year?).

I'm glad your sisters help you. It's okay to cry. But remember your not just being strong for fly but for your two blessings. I wish you could rent this movie called,"Hope floats". There comes a time in life when the tears will stop and you look around and start piecing your life back together and each day things get easier. I don't know how much you believe in God but if you do just remember...when God takes something from you he's freeing your hands of some space because he has bigger blessings in store for you. Flyy keep the faith. It takes time but just remember God loves you, your kids love you and so do i. I believe in you fly......you will be alright.

your friend,

Loreal

p.s-sorry so long

hang in there

tight hugs

youve been missed !!

hope to hear from you soon

hugs

its great that you like your job and while I know its difficult  that Arianna misses you I know you miss her too but  you are doing soemthing  that will eventually  pay off.

When my heart tells me something I go with it most of the time.

hugs

take care

Welcome back!!! YAY YAY YAY about getting the new job! That is an answer to our prayers!

    So happy for you!,

         Jewel

YAY congrats hun

hugs!!!

missed ya too

[ladyofthelake]

Wow hun talk about having allot on your mind. There have been people who have hurt me and let me down also in my life but much like you I look at my daughter as way to my happiness. She brings me light and I would never want to inflict that kind of pain in her thats why no matter what Q and I go through I would never take her away from Q. Every child needs there father, someone to protect them and and mother some one to look out for there best interest. Im sorry that your mother was such a suck ass mom, seriously. Some people just do not need to be blessed with children but they are and it amazes me what they chose to do with gods gift. You however are a responsible adult now and an absolutly wonderful mother, so you have learned from her mistakes. For that I say be grateful because now you know just what kind of mother NOT to be.

I love you hun and everything happens for a reason but I would forgive her. Why should you carry the burden of those painful memories, let her live with the guilt and you know what I say...happiness is the best revenge.

it isnt good that arguments turn into a pushing contest careful hun

hugs

plan your wedding

IT IS FO YOU!!!!

have fun

hugs

i hope you do get to have your wedding fly :) everyone deserves a day where its just about them.

-Peyton.<3

Right, that is NOT the point. Everyone knows that the wedding is ALL ABOUT THE B R I D E!! Heeelllooo??!! hehe

That is so sweet you want the whole shabang, its funny cause Q and I have been together for 5 years and married for 4 and we also didnt have a big wedding. I am obssesed with shows like Bridezilla and Platinum Wedding. He promised me that as soon as we are financially able to we will go all out. I just really want the reception our actual ceremony was one I will NEVER forget and wouldnt change it for a million $$$ well maybe haha

anyway love I pray we both get what we deserve!

luv ya!

HUGS

it is something we moms go thru...we feel we want more and something else

dont feel bad about it seize the moment and do something different

take care

((((((((((((((((((((9fLY))))))))))))))))) Major heart hugs! Sorry that you are feeling so down.

 I get that way sometimes too- tired of the same things over and over...feeling like I am stuck while others are moving forward.

   Praying that your blues soon pass!

   Much Love,

      Jewel

I hear that little lady go make that money I am truly happy for you, I pray that it is everything you deserve and more.

but ummm thats no excuse not to clean so get to it!! hahahaha

love ya!

hey congrats!!!  I am sure you will do great on your new job

hugs

Nobody is perfect my love, I completely understand why you would question him. But you know well like I know that we shouldnt count on anyone else to make us happy. Lord knows if we did....

Anyhow, Im praying by now you feel much better about the situation.

love you hun.

Best wishes with the test!  Glad that Luis has agreed to help out more- wish Wayne would help out more.

    Have a Blessed day!,

         Jewel

I hope you ace that test and you get the job

and yes hubby has to help with the kids  they are his  too after all so he needs to help out

I hope you can save nd take that trip I am sure you will have fun

hugs

Lols @ your last sentence :) great going heh :)

I'd like to have 3 kids in all but we may or may not have a 3rd one depending on our financial position.

Good luck!!!! I'm crossing my fingers for you so that you get the job!!

that way he is acting is showing his insecurity

some men cant take it when the wife works

hugs

I hope you get the job

congrats hun

too bad you guys couldnt go out and stuff

hugs

Sowy

Happy Belated Mothers Day!!!

I m glad that you had a good time

hugs

Oh trust me I know what you mean...lol you two freaks!! lol LOVES IT!

Im glad you had a great day, Im glad you told your baby to stand up for herself that would piss me off too. Nothing worse than your baby being bullied, makes you want to go CRAZY on somebody lol

Im also glad you contained your emotions and went along to celebrate with his bro, Im sure it meant allot to him.

HURRAY for getting your hair done WHOO HOO you SO deserve it little lady.

Anyhow, I've been having baby fever for a while now. Im just a little leary because I just got my body back and I dont want to gain all that wait again...*sigh* did you gain more or less during your pregnancy with Andrew than you did with Ariana?? inquiring minds want to know...

love ya hun! and a special all year round HAPPY MOTHER'S day to you deary, truly one of the best mom I know!!

MWAH

Sorry to read about the fighting!

   Happy Mother's Day!,

           Jewel

good luck on the interview

and good luck with arianna´s diet

its hard to put a kid on a diet...

hugs

aww sweetie you are still a VERY young woman with such a life ahead of her I dont think YOU can tell whats in store for you. But you must leave whatever is plagueing you and holding you back...you must let it go in order to move forward. I am sure that Luis knows you love him tremedously, you are a fantastic woman, mother, wife all of those things dont come from negativity. You are an outstanding human being and I am sure that your life will continue to be blessed accordingly...thanks for being my friend

love ya hun!

I hope you get that job soon

hugs

SO SO SO sorry I missed your special day!! Happy belated b-day mama

MMMMHAW

Happy Birthday Fly!!!

hugs

maybe you should have a weekend  for just the 2 of you

dont be sad

hugs

Happy Birthday!!!!!

   I'm sorry that Luis is acting this way...I said a prayer!

   Congrats on doing so well on your diet!

 Have a blessed day!,

       Jewel

doesnt sound good but try giving him space and not mentioning it

hugs

YAY for family time. Its VERY important! YAY for louis on that promo, good news indeed. Aww I forgot our b-days are close together I am the 25th?? you ?? anywayz I hope Luis gets you everything you want, you derseve it and much much more MAMA!

loves the entry so full of...joy

love ya hun!

Heart Hugs My Friend! I'm so glad to read your family got out for a walk together and enjoyed it!

 Congrats to Luis on his new position!

   I'm sorry to read about your mom's addiction and the pain that it has caused you! Mine really hurt my daughter as she was growing up..Thank GOD that she was able to forgive me!

    I pray that your Birthday will be FILLED with BLESSINGS!

   Much Love,

       Jewel

nope you shouldnt say anything to him

he should know

hugs

congratulations for your hubby

I hope he gets you something for your bday or at least remembers

hugs

it  will work out hun

just be patient and give it your best shot

c.

good luck sweetie

hugs

AMEN to that honey! I pray that you find something you TRULY see yourself doing in the long run. I will pray that Luis decides to go to school and better himself. I mean I think you already do a wonderful job of motivating him but maybe you can push him some more.

That way if he went to school then one day he'll be making enough so that you can stay home with the kids and maybe start a home day care or something out of the home. YAY!! im excited for you already, just keep the faith love and nothing can stop you.

xoxoxo

vodka and oj ...yumm !!!!

it seems like you guys had a great time and it was cool of luis to clean after

take care

hope your foot feels better soon

tight hugs

tight hugs

if someone messes with my son I will  frekkin hurt them bad, but just ignore then they dont deserve ur time

c.

aww hun

that sucks

but hey dont worry about that at the end of the day neither you nor arianna need people like that no matter if they are family, she knows that you love her and you will always be there for her and that my friend means the world to our little ones.

dont cry  fly  they are not worth your tears and arianna would be sad if she sees her mommy crying

hugs

  Hello there,
Arianna made the list. Actually, I think it's the prettiest name for a girl she has so far....but I'm just the Grandpa and don't get to make the final vote... Hope you have a nice Wednesday, and see you later. Michael

Feliz Cumpleańos Arianna!!!

[ladyofthelake]

we are at the end of this system. That is why time goes fast.

[ANONYMOUSAnonymous]

Happy Birthday Arianna!!!!

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LOL im sure it aint pretty at all. Thats why people should really try to stay out of our way for real! But its so wonderful that you guys are on the same page now! So in a way, you made your point if nothing else. Im extremely proud to read that you realize that the initial reaction isnt always the more productive! But Luis loves ya and he understands, and truth be told I think you have to lose it and flip out on a mofo every once n a while because you cant be nice ALL the time.

Good stuff lady, Im glad you are feeling much much better.

He who angers you, conquers you!

couples have ups and downs

communication is essential

take care

tight hugs

it is good that you guys are cool now

Luis is grrrrrrr!!!!

go out hun and do your thing, you have to have your space and life

take care

tons of hugs

FFFLLLYYY  Im angry for you because I know first hand just how hard you try to make everyone in your house happy. I know what it feels like to be unappreciated and it does hurt....so very bad. Especially when thats how you show your love but you get nothing in return.

I personally wouldnt worry too much about the flowers or going out too much but letting years go by is a bit much. I know you guys have bills and you're not working right now but maybe if you did get a j o b things would get better in that sense. I know for a while things were like that with us and it really stressed me out. But when I got a better job I saw what a huge difference it really did make.

I wouldnt depend on him to help you with things you want to achieve, its a nice thought but its unrealistic I think. You should put all that pressure you do to him into yourself and motivate yourself. Push yourself to just get it done. Even if it means asking someone else that you can rely on to help you. But to expect him to hold your hand aint going to happen. And beside maybe he likes having his wife at home all day. But I do know that you have hopes and dreams and you are too young to not start chasing them. All Im saying is dont expect to get the help you feel you deserve.However when you do start to get proactie about your goals you will be overwhelmed with the feeling of empowerment and sense of self you will find. JUST DO IT nena

I will push you everyday if I have to because I care about you and want your dreams to come true and although it doesnt seem like it to you right now so does Luis but I think you need to show him just how important these things are by taking the inniative and not waiting around for him.

love ya hun and I hope I dont come off rude, just think of it as tough love. We all need it from time to time.

ciao lovie

no woman deserves that! u should be treated like a princess. god men have been pissing me off lately...

Im so glad you guys are in a good place. You are a very thoughful wife to put in all that effort to please him....and it payed off!! How are those lil kiddies??? and you know it has been a while since I've seen those cuties, how about it huh?!?!?! lol just kidding no pressure. How are you doing though, are you working out, looking for a job?? I know you wanted to do some things for you! So Im just trying to keep you motivated. Kisses to yu and Luis you guys are an inspiration

luv you much hun!!

I am  soo happy for you Fly .  You deserve a happy marriage...and yes hun sometimes the freaks do come out at night...lmao

tight hugs

AWWW you are such a doll. A rose for me aww thanks love that mad my day.

I am trying and in reality thats all we can do is change and adjust to the storm until it passes. Thanks so much for putting up with my bitching and confusing entries but you have helped me so much to see that no one is perfect....not even me.

I love you fly girl and although Im a day late I wish you and your wonderful hubby a HAPPY HAPPY valentines day.

ciao lovie

cute entry

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Hey. I got your comment and I appreciate how honest you were and very caring. You really are my friend and I am so lucky I dont know its like a huge weight was lifted the day I decided to give it another shot. I mean I have out on so many situations because I didnt want to get hurt. I realize that this time I have to see things through to the end. You know because like you said I wouldnt want to have missed out.

Wow that was really sweet of luis to get you the phone you wanted. He wants to keep you happy and what better way...well maybe a tennis bracelet but hey lol maybe next year lol. Anyhow I was reading on yahoo that men dont really want anything material for V Day they would much prefer we buy some thing scandelous and let them unwrap it off of us. So your gift is actually going to win you some brownie points for sure! You smart woman you

Im really glad you patched things up w your bro's too. Love, I can tell it meant allot to you.

Best wishes love and I hope you get some for the holiday!!